Sometimes life places us exactly where we never thought we would be.
As a doctor, you imagine your journey going in a straight line—
“I’ll get a surgical job, I’ll train there, I’ll grow there.”
But reality often surprises us. I recently joined a renowned institute as a Paediatric Medical Officer, not because it was my dream field, but because something is better than nothing.
In medicine, staying stagnant feels heavier than taking an unexpected step forward.
I didn’t plan for this path. Yet here I am—stepping into paeds general and paeds hem-oncology, treating tiny patients and navigating a new system with anxiety, hope, and gratitude all mixed together.
And that is where this journey begins.
Feeling Fear and Gratitude at the Same Time
On one side, there is fear.
On the other, there is hope.
I have some past experience in paediatrics—six months—and that gives me confidence that I’ll eventually settle. The environment is surprisingly warm, the staff, the system, even the canteen gives a sense of comfort. Yet despite all this, a strange feeling of insecurity appeared.
I found myself wondering:
-Are people talking behind my back?
-Is there politics involved?
-Are seniors judging me?
But when I really looked around, the reality was different. The seniors were incredibly kind—cooperative, guiding me like one-on-one spoon-feeding, and carrying themselves with strength and grace.
One of the ER CMO’s is a strong woman with impressive leadership skills. Obviously someone like her would prefer a strong, disciplined team—not someone who feels weak or slow.
But I reminded myself: I am strong too. I’ve just been out of practice for a while. And strength always returns with time and repetition.
Facing the Real Fear: Handling Emergencies Alone
Let’s be honest—management of fear is real, especially in paediatrics.
-What if a serious case comes?
-What if the staff doesn’t cooperate?
-What if attendants panic?
-What if I have no immediate backup?
Every doctor no matter how experienced they are, has asked themselves these questions at some point. And maybe the fear never fully disappears. But what I know for sure is:
Allah never puts us in a situation beyond our capacity.
He chose this path for me. He opened this door for me.
And when Allah chooses a path… He also builds the steps along the way.
Trust Takes Time—And That’s Okay
In any new workplace, trusting people and earning their trust doesn’t happen instantly. Becoming part of a system takes time. Observing, understanding, adjusting—this is a slow process, and completely normal.
Feeling unsure in the beginning doesn’t mean you are incapable. It simply means you are human.
What matters is simply starting—and I have started.
With Time , every patient interaction, and every decision, confidence quietly grows. The unfamiliar slowly turns into routine, and fear gradually transforms into responsibility.
Tips to Adjust in a New Medical Environment (Even If It's Not Your First Choice)
Here are some practical, realistic strategies that helped me and might help you too:
1. Accept the Opportunity With an Open Mind
Even if the job isn’t your dream specialty, treat it as a stepping stone. Every experience contributes to growth, confidence, and future opportunities.
2. Give Yourself Time to Blend Into the System
The first few weeks are always overwhelming. Don’t expect instant comfort. Observe how things work, absorb the flow, and slowly become part of it.
3. Build Slow, Genuine Connections
You don’t need instant friendship. Just be polite, approachable, and respectful. Genuine bonds will form naturally.
4. Ask Questions Without Feeling Guilty
Doctors aren’t robots. If seniors are helpful, use the opportunity. It is better to ask than to make mistakes in paediatrics.
5. Fight the Fear of Emergencies Through Preparation
Keep yourself mentally and practically prepared:
- revise common emergency algorithms/ protocols
- knowing pediatrics emergency drugs.
- understand escalation protocols.
- identify reliable nursing staff
The more prepared you are, the less frightening emergencies feel.
6. Don’t Let Negative Thoughts Win
Sometimes negativity comes from our own insecurities, not from people. Trust actions, not assumptions.
7. Remember: Strength Returns With Practice
If you feel slow, rusty, or hesitant—it’s temporary. Once you get into the rhythm again, your confidence and speed will naturally return.
8. Rely on Allah and Your Own Resilience.
Faith transforms fear into courage. And experience transforms doubt into confidence.
You are exactly where you are meant to be.
Conclusion: New Beginnings Are Not Mistakes—They Are Guidance
Maybe this journey—with all its fear, learning, faith, and growth—is preparing me for something better. Maybe it’s teaching patience and strength in ways I didn’t expect.
Starting a new job, especially one you didn’t plan for, is emotionally heavy, but also deeply transforming.
With time, effort, self-belief, and trust in Allah, every unfamiliar place becomes a source of strength.
This is not just a job.
This is a beginning.
If you’ve been through a similar phase, feel free to comment below and share your story—you’re not alone.
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